| my eyes. |
[May. 5th, 2009|08:17 pm] |
My eyes, namely my left eye, has been swelling up the in the morning since saturday due to my sinuses. And even though the swelling does go down, the pain still persists. It really hurt a lot today and I was affected by it.
And it hurts even more now and I'm super affected by it.
Anyways, the past 2 days were fun for me.
Lots and lots of laughter in class.
Went to watch Wolverine after school yesterday with Slyboy, Sha and Dhivv.
It was nice towards the ending.
As for today, I went home with Deng.
Have not gone home with him since the start of semester.
Then met up with mr. chiam for dinner and to walk around and stuff.
Alrights, going to sleep now.
Hopefully my eye will be better tomorrow! |
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[May. 4th, 2009|10:36 pm] |
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I am on a secret mission that only a few people know about.
Get ready to be surprised HRP <3
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| Bottle. |
[May. 2nd, 2009|12:06 am] |
I'm bottling everything up because don't know how to put in words how I'm feeling.
Too many things are going through my mind and I can just start to tear for no reason.
But I know that even when I don't know what's going on, God knows.
Maybe it's partially due to my tiredness and the stress that is being put on me.
School is one thing, but there are other things too.
And there are some tough decisions that I have to make, things that I have to give up.
But I know that I am not alone.
I hate crying.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
But I know I have to cry to let everything out.
I'll be fine, soon, hopefully and prayerfully. |
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| beautifully imperfect. |
[Apr. 28th, 2009|09:50 am] |
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I am beautifully imperfect (:
I love Chayzx and ahTAN!
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| W54E |
[Apr. 24th, 2009|03:07 pm] |
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Alrightys! School has started..
Really super duperly blessed with an awesome class!
Though the modules are really quite tough, but with classmates like them, I really think class will be fun.
But I hope it'll stay like this. No bitching, politics, whatever kays?
Wheee.
I really feel like falling asleep now.
Shall crap with Zhu Xin to stay awake.
FACEBOOK! |
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| First Day as A Year 2 Students and Other updates. |
[Apr. 20th, 2009|09:56 pm] |
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Today was my first official day of being a Pharmaceutical Student.
I had microbiology and I think it was okay.
Have yet to get to know my classmates.
Anyways, about something that happened to me today, I was really affected by it today but I decided not to dwell in it and let it affect me and decided to let it go. And I'm still speechless towards what happened. But never mind.
Met the Senior HRPians during second break and I didn't have time to eat together with them! I so hate the new RP system that doesn't give us time to eat.
So after school, went to meet the HRPians to rant about my day then went to TRCC to celebrate SHA's birthday. Played some crazy games.
Anyways, here are 2 of the main events that happened last week.
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| Alive. |
[Apr. 13th, 2009|01:05 am] |
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Today was a great day for me.
My day started at 9am as I was serving for HopeTots/Kinders combined service today.
All in all, I was really glad when it was all over. Enjoyed serving with the people from Aunty Jane's side.
And the Tots were so cute lahs.
And so, moving on to Service time.
I think that this has been one of the most memorable Easters ever.
The production was great, and everything was just great.
Testimony was shared and I teared.
I mean, I heard it during the rehearsals and it did have much impact on my till today.
Thanks to Uncle Kelvin and Auntie Yung for taking up so much courage to go up and share your testimony.
Everyone was talking about it and that is how much you guys have impacted their live.
The most moving part was definitely during altar call.
My whole life just started running through my mind.
And a few days ago, I came across a letter I wrote to my mom when I was much younger. I think I wrote it about 7 years ago. I can't remember what I did that made her so mad and me think this way but it went something like this:
On the envelope I wrote:
PS. Hope you will be happy after you read this. I do not deserve to be loved by other people anymore.
The letter:
Dear Mommy,
I don't deserve to live with people who love me very much. All the people who love me very much are in Singapore. I don't deserve to live with them anymore. If you do not want to see my face anymore, please buy me a ticket back to America. Now you can stay here and live a happy life with kor kor, Janelle and Daddy. I hope that you will be very happy after I go.
At the time when I read the letter, I couldn't help but just cry for a few minutes
And I don't know why I was crying either.
But today, during Altar Call, that was one of the memories that flashed in mind and I really could not stop tearing. And so many others from the hurts in primary school, to secondary school, the short depression stage I was going through, the lonely times in Secondary one when I really had no friends and the friendships I THOUGHT I had were all one-sided, the suicidal thoughts I have had. That was before I knew God.
I'm not gonna even get started on the things that happened after I knew God.
But one thing I know for sure, Jesus overcame all these things for me on the cross.
God's laws, God's ways are perfect, but Man is imperfect and we broke all of God's ways.
Like Pastor Jeff says:
In those stores that sell fragile stuff, they paste signs all over saying: Nice to see, nice to touch, one broken, considered bought.
To our lives, it's just the same, but we didn't the pay the price. Jesus did.
Like in the letter I wrote to my mommy, whatever I did that time made me feel so undeserving. Made me feel that the world would have been a better place without me. But my mommy forgave me.
And Jesus forgave me. We don't deserve to be forgiven and the world will definitely be a better place without us, but instead of us being sent to death, Jesus was sent to death.
Not only does Jesus Save, but Jesus pays.
Some people who are reading this may start labelling me as being holy, religious, etc. etc.
But I don't care, not one bit.
And what's my life like now?
Well, I've got such a great unit- HRP :) for always making me feel loved, for being so family, for being a great part of my life.
I've got great friends in church: Rachel, Kar, Deng- definitely people I can count on.
I'm sacrifcing my sleep on Sunday to impact the lives of kids. And because of HopeKids ministry, I don't just have kids to take care of, but I have mother and father figures in the leaders who impact my life too.
So much so much to thank God for.
Want a purposeful life? Want to be forgiven fully? Want someone to pay for all your wrongdoings?
JESUS is the only way. |
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| Stepping Stones |
[Apr. 5th, 2009|11:26 pm] |
A few years back, I think when I was in Sec 2, I was going through some problems in my life.
And I almost gave up on life, and I kept questioning God: Why me God? Why did You put so many problems in my life?
And I shared to my then shepherd and this is what she told me: Each problem in our life is just like a stepping stone. Every time we over come one problem, we are one step closer to God.
This is what I sms-ed my sheep: Treat each problem in our life like a stepping stone. Because a stepping stone helps you to cross a river, and if you don't overcome the stepping stone, you will fall into the river. But every time you manage to make it to the next stepping stone, you have grown one more step closer to God.
John 16:33
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
Romans 8:35-37
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ....No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
So what are the stepping stones in your life today?
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| If only I could turn back time |
[Apr. 3rd, 2009|12:06 am] |
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just deleted the post that was here.
i just needed to take a bath and to cool down.
WHOA! God be the solution! |
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| I love this family of God. |
[Mar. 29th, 2009|01:41 am] |
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I am really lazy to upload pics.
Hahas. Mostly because of my sickness.
Anyways, I really cannot stop thinking about what I witnessed with my own pair of eyes today.
About how bonded to RP group was.
Doing crazy things together, playing childhood games together.
It really touches my heart to see how everyone steps out of their comfort zone to get to know one another more in depth.
I really believe that this is OUR year.
Wait, I don't believe.
I KNOW that this is our year.
The year that we will see breakthroughs in everyone.
Anyways, Phillippines was awesome.
Don't feel like elaborating 'cause I am really sick.
But thanks people for the concern.
And thanks Wei Loong for the lozenges.
I am really very touched. |
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| BIG BIG THANK YOU! |
[Mar. 22nd, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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I had the most memorable birthday ever in my whole life.
I really wanna thank a lot of people but im so tired because of my 7 hrs of sleep in 3 days but I just have to post this.
I was really really really touched by the Hope RP people just now.
tears actually welled up in my eyes you know.
I was already expecting a celebration but I did not expect to see what I saw.
When people were asked to affirm me, A lot of hands went up and the people were fighting over who was going to affirm me first.
The point I am trying to make is not that I am popular, but knowing that I have impacted the lives of God's children in small little way is. And I was touched by what the people said. I never knew how much I have impacted their lives.
The past 3 days have been just so awesome.
I will post when I get the chance.
But for now, sleep is the most important. hahas.
Thank You God for the past 3 days for showing me what a wonderful life I have in You and thanks for the ever loving, ever accepting, ever caring and ever crappy family of God You have given to me. |
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| Mommy |
[Mar. 18th, 2009|03:07 pm] |
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due to unforeseen circumstances, my agenda for yesterday was all cleared. and so, I accompanied my mom down to town to meet aunty faye for coffee. On the train, mommy asked me about church and camp and stuff and I felt really happy that she had adjusted to my this lifestyle. And after we parted ways with aunty faye, me and mommy went to takashimaya before I went down to nexus to help out with deco. And I totally enjoyed my day yesterday just have a nice chat with my mommy and walking around and around and around the same floor of takashimaya. I can't wait to spend more time with her when we go to the Phillippines.
One thing I realised yesterday:
I may not look like my mom, but in the future, she is the kind of person I want to be.
I love you mommy!
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| counting my blessings |
[Mar. 15th, 2009|10:19 pm] |
- I thank God for ripples' conference that I attended yesterday. It really spoke to me about the importance of childrens' ministry and I was given a chance to testify how the childrens' ministry has impacted my life to more workers like me. I will post about it soon.
- I thank God for my meet up with soh seepeng the other day. Just meeting her up amidst the busyness of my week really helped me to relax and we had a real good catch up session.
- I thank God for my shepherd for being sensitive to my needs and for being so understanding. I just finished talking to her on the phone and my spirits were lifted after that.
- I thank God for weiting and daphne for encouraging me about certain stuff. I was really fearful at first but after talking to them, I am ready to take on the challenge.
- I thank God for the youth transfers that have brought much more life into our unit.
- I thank God for God.
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| Misses |
[Mar. 6th, 2009|02:58 pm] |
I have beeen so busy this week and I've been reaching home at 11 or 12 every night.
But I have great people who are busy with me and who stay out late with me.
Thanks God for them :)
esp Kaien and Daphne.
For accompanying me to TP yesterday.
Appreciate it lots.
Just a quick post here cause I need to leave soon.
Anyways, I miss koh kar chian, soh see peng and rachel fong!
I want to meet up with them soon!
And I pray that Soh See Peng does well for her papers so that she can go to the Phillipines the same time as me! hahas.
But she's really worried about her papers, so pray for her people!
Alrights. Gotta run!
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| Foundation |
[Mar. 1st, 2009|03:37 pm] |
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Stepping up, stepping out.
We have to think big, start small and build deep.
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| Picnic@Botanic Gardens |
[Feb. 23rd, 2009|11:18 pm] |
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Yups!
Had a picnic with Hope RP at Botanic Gardens today.
It rained, heavily, but we had so much fun!
Thanks Daph for organizing!
So when the rain started to disappear, we decided to walk out.
And this is what happened in the span of 2 minutes.
Bus 123 comes and I ask the uncle if it goes to Tanglin Mall.
Uncle says that it's only one stop.
Made the whole bus wait for us while we were deciding if we should walk or take the bus.
Eventually, we took the bus.
Story does not end there.
The whole group of us got on the bus and many of us had no money in our cards.
And we got off one stop later.
It was funny!
I dropped Andrew's volleyball!!! It rolled into the street and a taxi drove over it and it let out a big BANG!
I feel so bad now, and I will definitely pay him back.
Headed to nexus for music practice and did lyrics there, and happened to see yeshen in nexus and so we trained home together.
Yups.
I shall go and bathe now before i decide not to bathe!
Pictures will be up soon!
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| SLEEPOVER!! |
[Feb. 20th, 2009|12:31 pm] |
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i had an awesome random sleepover yesterday and jacob's place.
stayover with daph, jolene, mg, gordon, kai en and luke and i really had a great time.
great time chatting with jo and daph too and sharing about our groups.
more sleepovers soon!
now, i am going to catch up on some sleep!
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| American Idol Season 8 |
[Feb. 13th, 2009|03:11 am] |
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dude on the left is adam lambert from American Idol season 8.
dude on the right is Joe Jonas.
I think that they look alike.
Like Shivv Saves: Carbon Copy
But you have to see him on american idol to see more of the resemblance.
  another pair. Left is stevie wright from AI season 8 too and right is Scarlett Johansson. Stevie Wright is one of my favorites! and she's only 16. and lastly, check out Tatiana Nicole Del Toro she's pretty, she's hot, has a nice voice just one problem: she is really really really annoying and is such a drama queen. when more videos of her are posted on YouTube, I promise I'll post them up here!
but for now, SLEEP! |
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| Random Web Thingys |
[Feb. 10th, 2009|08:53 pm] |
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Funniest IRC Quotes: random girl: hey!
me: …hi?
me: who is this?
random girl: Jessica, I saw u on myspace
random girl: ur hot
me: thanks
random girl: np
me: this girl keeps bugging me, but I don’t want to talk to her
me: what should I do?
random girl: make up sum excuse, like ur mom is kickin u off or sumthing
me: oh alright
me: I have to go
me: my mom is kicking me off
me: bye
<samsim> I heard about this guy who broke into a lion’s den at the zoo
<samsim> and got mauled
<samsim> and people were talking about how there should have been better defences put up to prevent people getting into the cage
<samsim> a friend of mine suggested setting up some kind of deterrent
<samsim> for example, putting some sort of fierce animal in the cage, which would attack anybody who climbed in
<Pax> I wish my lawn was emo, so it would cut itself.
CREDITS: http://listverse.com/humor/top-10-funniest-irc-quotes/
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